What’s holding you back?
“Stop trying to be less of who you are. Let this time in your life cut you open and drain all of the things that are holding you back.”
― Jennifer Elisabeth, Born Ready: Unleash Your Inner Dream Girl
I found it. It took me 36 years, moving overseas to another country far beyond my comfort zone to figure it out. When it came I immediately choked on my own breath. As if my lungs would explode. A most overwhelming sensation and all I wanted to do was go for a run to release this intense feeling of release. But it wasn’t a release, it was a realization. The kind of realization that has the power to change my life forever. The reality came to me of what it is that holds me back. So what do I do now?
Have you ever looked back on your life and thought about situations you were in that you wish would’ve been different? Where you wished you would’ve reacted differently? Or acted differently? I’m not talking about regrets, but just the thought of ‘what if?’ And along with the thought of ‘what if’ comes the reality of a pattern. A pattern that we have that often acts as a wall between us and allowing ourselves to take a giant leap into something greater. Something more profound.
The heat in Dubai offers the reality for me to remember to relax and hibernate. The hard thing that I’ve found is that hibernation for me in the summer bleeds into a feeling of isolation. Feeling isolated often opens my wounds. Takes me into my dark places to explore. When I explore my shadows I connect to something greater. Sometimes I feel sad, but after moments of sadness I begin to understand moments like these. It’s like a gift waiting to be opened, because when I allow myself to explore my shadow my heart opens to the opportunity of transformation. The ability to see and feel my emotional blocks & my destructive patterns in order to heal. Outside of these moments, my chaotic life runs amok away from my shadows, with the hopes to remain in the light.
I have found that our dark shadows and our light are both important to understand. Life, the planet, nature, our bodies, animals etc. we’re meant to be balanced. If we only understand the light how will we ever understand the depth of our being? And if we only know our shadow how will we ever know how amazing of a human being we really are? In order to understand the beauty of who we truly our, we must understand both.
So what is it that holds me back? That is the process I’m venturing into, and whether I tell you or not, what matters is that I’m diving into a part of myself that I can finally nurture and heal after all these years. Life is good 🙂 I hope you get the chance to experience something as profound as I have. Although it’s a hard place to be I can already tell you I’m glad I was open enough to receive this gift. This offering to allow me to see my truth. My satya.
New and exciting news coming up in February 2016. I, Liz Terry will be leading the upcoming Yogaworks 200 hour Teacher Training 🙂 Come join me as we embark on this amazing journey together of exploration and connection into something you just never know about until you take the leap. I hope you join me in taking this new leap together!
Blessings to you,
Founder of Satya Flow Yoga